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>.< Alright.

I know, my folks aren't the ones to go to, I've tried to tell them before and they call it all an excuse e,,e That I don't have a reason to feel how I do because they had it worse off than me e.e''

I wanna try, it all looks hopeless when it comes to finding a job, I have tried and gotten no where x.x I need to keep pestering them, but at the same time I'm told not to pester them too much, which is fucking confusing O.e I wanna go to college, but I'm unsure just how to start the process DX It might look simple but it confuses the hell outta me x.x I could get aid, I know I'll qualify, but I need to know in what order to follow the steps..

I think another major problem is I've never been able to handle change well, maybe it's more of a fear of change and just how things will change...A fear that once I start doing grown up things, I won't be me anymore..It's a dumb fear e.e

I have a host of fears actually, but I'm gonna try slowly getting over them...My biggest fear is not being happy in what I do....I wanna be a musician, but fuck it's been years since I've written anything x,x It's the same problem with being a writer >.<

@Hash: That's mainly why I haven't done anything yet >.> I keep thinking about my friends and how they'd feel if I did it, it stops me, I'm worried one day though that won't be enough >.<

Well for the college thing, you've gotta decide on a program and school first, then they should have instructions on a site or whatever. You can even call and ask for help.

You would hurt a lot of people if you did that... >.<

I already know what school, and I don't really think they have any programs though o.o And I'll have to >.<

I know >.<

How can they not have programs? O.o

I'm sure they do, but I'm not sure exactly how to recognize them o.O

Just look through them on the site for that college. o.o

They probably have a phone number on the site. you could always just call and ask them (I'm sure they must get calls like that all the time)

also, just thought I ought to share this, It's from the dean blundell show:

http://www.edge.ca/DJsandShows/Podcasts/index.aspx click the one which say Operation booty call

it's an audio file and it's "safe for work" (ie. noone is going to think you are actually watching pornography.)

I will most likely end up calling them >.< And I'll browse the site again and see o.o

What is that exactly? o.o

It's a clip of the dean blundell show, something which airs in the morning on a local radio station.Specifically, it's "a blind guy's idea for a military porn movie", or so they say on the radio show i got it from. I think it was just a comedic parody of the premise of porn.

I see lol XD

Can someone explain to me why my mother got pissed off when I clogged the toilet and in trying to fix it broke the plunger which meant she had to buy one? o.e Okay, I know it's not pleasant to have to go out at 9pm at night, but still she's all over dramatic about it e.e

There's probably other stuff she's dealing with right now, and that was the tipping point. sometimes, I find people (including myself) tend to snap at nothing in certain situations, things which really don't matter when you think about it but are just a berzerk button most of the time.

She's just nuts e.e I think anyway...She's still pissed about something e.e

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